It's Monday once again and I am sitting at work blogging instead of doing what I should be. I am sure most of us do this. Maybe you don't blog instead of work but you do other things?? Anyway. I have my pandora Mumford and Sons station playing in the background. I was thinking about my life to come and it's scary! I graduate in 13 days. I feel like I am starting a new life and that I should start to be an adult now. I'm 28 now and I still don't act like an adult as it is. How am I supposed to change that now. Does graduating from college really mean you have to be an adult??????
I sort of met a new boy this weekend. I say sort of because he noticed me on Friday with my friend but I did not notice him. I felt bad about this but hey, I guess things happen when you're not looking right. Well anyway, he told his friend to give me his number and we've been texting back and forth for the last couple of days. He's a bit older than me...! He seems nice. I haven't even met him. I have a feeling that this will turn out like every other guy I've met along the journey of my life. We'll text a bit. We'll meet and he'll be disappointed. Although, one plus is that he sort of knows what I look like right? He did think I was pretty enough to warrant a text or two. Hmm......
We'll see how it goes. It is definitely different talking to someone who is not close in age to me. A little strange in fact. I'm not sure whether I should be weirded out or turned on. It is a dilemma! I can't stop thinking that in 1993 I was 11 or 12 and he was in his early twenties. If we were to date this might pose a problem..haha! Is it bad that I'm not even sure that I like the man but I can't stop thinking about him? Does it mean that I actually like him?
Maybe I can stop myself from being a total retard and not ruin things now. One thing I worry about is when we meet will he still be interested? Or will I be as disappointing as I feel I always am? Wow...this post really makes it seem that I have no self-esteem at all. Let me just say that I do...some what!
Listening to Mumford and Sons....I miss my grandmother...
I sort of met a new boy this weekend. I say sort of because he noticed me on Friday with my friend but I did not notice him. I felt bad about this but hey, I guess things happen when you're not looking right. Well anyway, he told his friend to give me his number and we've been texting back and forth for the last couple of days. He's a bit older than me...! He seems nice. I haven't even met him. I have a feeling that this will turn out like every other guy I've met along the journey of my life. We'll text a bit. We'll meet and he'll be disappointed. Although, one plus is that he sort of knows what I look like right? He did think I was pretty enough to warrant a text or two. Hmm......
We'll see how it goes. It is definitely different talking to someone who is not close in age to me. A little strange in fact. I'm not sure whether I should be weirded out or turned on. It is a dilemma! I can't stop thinking that in 1993 I was 11 or 12 and he was in his early twenties. If we were to date this might pose a problem..haha! Is it bad that I'm not even sure that I like the man but I can't stop thinking about him? Does it mean that I actually like him?
Maybe I can stop myself from being a total retard and not ruin things now. One thing I worry about is when we meet will he still be interested? Or will I be as disappointing as I feel I always am? Wow...this post really makes it seem that I have no self-esteem at all. Let me just say that I do...some what!
Listening to Mumford and Sons....I miss my grandmother...
