Sitting in class and trying not to fall asleep while your monotone, whispering professor teaches about contracts in hotel and restaurant law is not as easy as some might think. It is not as interesting as you might think. I know that I was disappointed after the first class. Knowing this, I probably should have dropped it because now I have that sinking feeling of failure and by failure I mean that loathesome "B". This is one of those classes where you only have two tests: the midterm and the final. Needless to say it means hours of studying and gallons of coffee. I guess that is most days in a college student's life! I long for the days when all I have to do is wake up and go to work. I won't have to worry about juggling schedules for work, school, friends, family, etc. I never feel like I have enough time for anything!
Can you believe after I graduate in May I am actually considering going back to school for another 1-3 years?? Do I really want to put myself through more studious torture? Why yes! I do! It is another step in my plan that I have not fully formulated yet. Everyone always asks what you want to be doing in 5 years or 10 years. Hell! I don't know. I am only figuring things out a day at a time. All I know today is that I graduate in May and I can breathe a sigh of relief until I start again.
Future! Future! Future! One word that I always hear. I am tired of contemplating my future. I want to live a day at a time. I am not saying that I do not think about the future because of course I constantly plan trips and what I want to do in the next year. All I mean is that I am tired of everyone constantly asking me what I want to do with my life. I am tired of wondering when I am going to be married, or have children, or move out of my mothers house. I am tired!
No comments:
Post a Comment